New beginning

So the quarter is officially over. I just finished my last exam today at 3:30, and I am so glad to be done. This was by far my hardest quarter for classes. I don't think I even did that well with grades. Hopefully it doesn't affect me too much. Oh well, now I am just looking forward to my family vacation in Florida in a couple weeks. It's been about four years since we last took a family vacation, and it is way overdue. I only got to see them once this quarter, mainly because I was so busy pretty much every weekend. I think next quarter though I am going to make an attempt to go home a couple more times. More and more I am finding that my life is now really in Cincinnati. I find myself referring to this as home, even though it really isn't. I don't know, I think because I am getting more involved navs and other stuff, and the majority of my friends back at home aren't there, or really haven't moved on with their life. And don't get me wrong, I love it here. I just think that maybe I need to make more attempts to see my family.

Life has been crazy lately though. I haven't really done much of anything this past week but study, which is really out of the ordinary for me because I hate to study. I just got a job at L-3 Communications in Mason, OH, which means I'll be living in town next quarter. For a while I thought that I might be in Atlanta or Boston, but those didn't pan out. I'm really looking forward to getting a break from school, and co-oping for winter quarter. Sometimes I question whether or not I should be in engineering, because I really don't know what I am doing. But I think that Co-op will help tremendously, since I will be learning a lot of new stuff in the next three-four months. God is wierd though. It's so easy to think that you have things figured out to some extent, then BAM!, something pops into your life so unexpectedly that you don't know how to react. I find myself constantly relying on myself, and not trusting God with everything. It's just hard for me. Usually I rely on other people for advice, but for some reason, I just don't know who to talk to. I think that's why I decided to start up a blog at 12:30 AM(even though I have to be at work in 5 1/2 hours). I just need to get all of this crap off my chest. It's the weirdest thing, I really want to talk to someone about it, but for some reason, everyone I think of, even my closest friends, I just don't feel like I need to bring this up to them. Really what it is, is that that I have no idea what the heck I'm doing. I had a mindset coming into this year about how things are supposed to go, but obviously God had other plans. Do I know why everything is happening this way? heck no. But I guess that's where relying on God helps out a lot.

I feel like I'm just babbling now. Not really looking forward to work in the morning. Oh well.